I've decided it's time for me to be REAL with you...I don't like to put my weight out there for the world to see, BUT, I today I am BECAUSE I want YOU to see that your weight DOES NOT define YOU. People are people regardless of size! When, I decided it was time for me to make a change, I was finally in a happy place in my life for the first time in nearly 12 years. I had recently gotten a divorce (the BEST decision I EVER made), I moved 2 1/2 hours away from the ONLY place I really knew, my kids were thriving in their new environment and I was in a new and healthy relationship (we are still going strong almost 2 yrs later). I decided it was time for me to work on myself, at this point I weighed in at a whopping 245 lbs...probably not my highest, but, being that size I didn't want to know. The marriage I was in wasn't the best, I had no support in any way, so any motivation I ever got to lose weight was quickly swept under the rug. Eating was my therapy. It was my stress reliever. It was my happy place. Having Cliff (my boyfriend) in my life is one of the best things that could have happened to me. He has supported and believed in me from day 1. One September day, I decided to join a gym. Me and my self conscious, over weight self walking into that gym full of fit, skinny, healthy people was the HARDEST thing I had done at that point. I felt like all eyes were on me. I didn't go back for 3 days after I signed up. I was embarrassed. But, one day after dropping the kids off at school, I made myself go in. I walked on that treadmill for 2 hours. It took me 2 months of going everyday, Monday through Friday, 2 times a day, before I could gather the courage to do anything else. Luckily, one day a trainer came up to me and said, you know you walk an awful lot. What are your goals? I told him I wanted to lose weight and tone up. He said, well then walking isn't going to do that for you. And, he showed me some things to do. He worked with me on and off for the next several months. I was determined. Then, in March Cliff bought me P90X. I started that in April and quit the gym. Beachbody has changed my life. I'm not to my goal yet, but, it has given me so much more than the fitness aspect. It has taught me alot about myself, it taught me that I am the only person holding myself back from the things I want most in life, I have met so many AMAZING people and feel blessed to be given this opportunity to share this with others. To date I have lost 55 lbs and went from a size 18/20 to a 12 (some 10's) I'm still going. It's not about the number on the scale. Its about YOU feeling GOOD about where you are! I have noticed with each size I drop my confidence builds up. I often wonder why I ever let myself get to that point? But, really it don't matter now, I know I'm never going back. I just want you to know, I am here to help you!